Monday, January 02, 2006

all other goals bow down to this I have resisted making "new year's resolutions" for as long as I can remember. This is not becuase of some strong conviction or belief. It is simply because I am a recovering perfectionist who hates failure. So instead, I have goals, but they are not new for the new year--they are a perpetual list that is always growing and shrinking (as things get done) and changing. Anyway, tonight I was doing a 15 minute room rescue of my living room (somehow the "bathroom slippers" keep ending up in the middle of my living room--oh the joys of having a puppy) while I was listening to the CD Here I am to Worship, when I heard Wendy O'Connell singing "Above All Else" written by Vicky Beeching. The words caught my attention and sent me to my computer to search for the lyrics: Jesus my passion in life is to know You May all other goals bow down to This journey of loving You more Jesus You've showered Your goodness on me Given Your gifts so freely But there's one thing I'm longing for Hear my heart's cry And my prayer for this life Above all else Above all else Above all else Give me Yourself This song sums up my heart's desire . . . my longing for 2006: that all my other goals bow down to the journey of knowing and loving Jesus more. I also like the way she pleads with Him to give her Himself. I have spent most of my life mistakenly believing that I had to "earn God." If I was good enough, if I prayed well, if I studied my Bible right, then He would reveal Himself to me. Oh how wrong I was! Actually, this thinking robbed me of the joy only those redeemed by grace can experience. Jesus, this song verbalizes my heart's cry. I want to know you better. I want to love you more. I want to be intimate with You, the lover of my soul. Give me Yourself. Help me to make all other goals I set this year bow to this desire. And, I thank You that I do not have to earn You--that You freely give Yourself. I love you, Lord.
why live in taiwan? After reading my post on whistling in Taiwan, Bethany asks some great questions about how I ended up in Taiwan. And, while her questions are specifically about my master's degree and being here now, the answers would be the middle of the story. So, first I am going to share the "why of being" in Taiwan and then share the "why Taiwan." I figure it will take me a few posts to do this; I will just write for 15 min and then continue the story later linking them all together in the end. Ok, so first, "why do I live in Taiwan?" Well . . . we must first go back to a night long, long ago: As we drove down LiuHe Street, the neon signs flashed strange looking symbols so different from anything I had ever seen before. The driver of the car was teaching my friends how to say, “It tastes good,” in a harsh tonal language that I could not stand to hear and absolutely refused to speak. Suddenly a sinking feeling flooded my stomach; I could not tell if it was from the unidentifiable object that I ate for dinner or from my dislike for this strange place. Almost nine years have passed since I sat in the back of that black Honda in Taiwan. Years filled with unique experiences, bouts of culture shock, and immense change. In these nine years, I have learned to enjoy and be a part of the Taiwanese culture so much that it is now my home away from home. God has done an incredible thing, and I stand in awe. He has changed my heart’s desire so drastically that now living in Taiwan gives me great joy! I count it a privilage to be able to live here--there really is no where else I'd rather be at this time in my life! You see, growing up in church, I knew we needed "missionaries," but I did not know that "regular" people still daily worship idols made of their own hands—images that cannot hear, cannot see, cannot speak, cannot understand. The desire to live in Taiwan lies deep within; I desire to offer hope to the people of Taiwan—people who want success in life, people who crave peace, people who long to be loved, people who desire the best for their family, people who need Jesus, the One, True God. The Lord’s heart for the nations, for the peoples of this world, is clear in Scripture. I desire to be to Taiwan, not to make converts to a certain faith system, but to share with them a God who is able to set them free through faith in Jesus Christ, in order that they may also have the joy of worshiping my Father and may be able to rejoice in Him with me for time and for eternity. If you wanna know why I ended up in Taiwan and not some other place, you can read the story starting with:...

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