Wednesday, March 22, 2006

He does what he wants I was sharing the gospel with a dear friend last week. As he was asking me different questions, he asked me one that went something like this, "So, you wanna get married right?" "Well, yes." "So, even if you never get married, do you still trust Him and love Him?" My friend knew how to get to my heart of hearts, but the answer is simply, "Yes." "Ok, so, what if you never get married and lots and lots of bad things happen to you for the rest of your life, are you still going to worship Him and call him good?" "Well, yes." If there ever comes a time like that, I know that won't be easy and I am not saying I won't wrestle with it, but God is either all good all the time or He is not good at all. He is all powerful all the time or he is not in control at all. I don't get to choose what God's character is based on the circumstances around me. At a ladies retreat I went to this past weekend, the speaker pointed out that usually when we face a crisis of belief these are the two character traits of God we struggle with most. Some of us will declare "well, God is all powerful, but he must not be all good (or he would have prevented this)," while others of us will claim, "God is good, but he must not be all powerful (or he would have stopped this)." But, both of these are lies. The beauty of God's sovereignity is "his absolute right to do all things according to his own good pleasure" (Easton's 1897 Bible Dictionary). Nothing in that statement says I have the right to understand or approve of what He is doing. As Job puts it "But he is singular and sovereign. Who can argue with him? He does what he wants, when he wants to" (23:13). I must choose to trust His heart. I must choose to trust how He has revealed Himself to me and to my ancestors in the past. I must choose to trust that He is who He says He is in His Word. So, then, let's celebrate our sovereign Lord. Let's delight in the fact that in all things and in all ways forever and always He alone--an all-powerful, all-good God--is supreme, is in complete control. "How great you are, O Sovereign LORD! There is no one like you–there is no other God. We have never even heard of another god like you! . . . For you are God, O Sovereign LORD. Your words are truth, and you have promised these good things to me, your servant. And now, may it please you to bless me and my family so that our dynasty may continue forever before you. For when you grant a blessing to your servant, O Sovereign LORD, it is an eternal blessing!" (2 Samuel 7:22, 28-29)
my fridge died When I was putting away the groceries last week, my fridge quit blowing cold air. Just stopped. Completely stopped. Admittedly, it is old--it is not surprising that it was in the last days of sharing with me its frigid air. It was also a gift--given to me by some missionary friends from Meinong. I guess holding the door open that long to put away stuff just caused the fridge to finally give out, blowing its last cold puff of air on my face and hands. My immediate reaction was to panic. My heart started to race. I worried about all the meats I had just bought--what a waste. I worried about replacing the fridge with a new one--it is not in my budget. I worried about how do I even get rid of the old one. I worried about the time it would take to go find a new one. I worried about what to do with getting rid of all the stuff inside the fridge. (I'll tell you in another post about garbage take out here.) Then I thought, well maybe it can be fixed. So, then I worried about how to find a handyman to fix my fridge. I worried about how much that would cost. I worried about how long that would take. I worried about how messy the inside of the fridge was and how embarrssing it would be to let some outsider see it in such a mess. All of this worry raced into my heart and filled my mind. Then, I came to my study and just prayed a simple prayer, "Lord, can you fix my fridge? I don't have the means to deal with this right now. I need to you take care of this." I kept checking the non-working fridge every five minutes for about an hour. Still no cold air. I talked to some Taiwanese friends about how to find a handyman. I even searched online for the approximate costs of new fridges and what to look for when buying a new one. I still had a heart that was beating faster than normal and a blood pressure probably higher than it should have been. I was on my out the door to go ask the security guard downstairs for help in locating a handyman when I stopped by the fridge for one last check. I opened the door to the freezer, peeked inside, and . . . the air came back on! After over one hour of my frozen foods starting to defrost, my fridge came back on. It was fixed. And a week later is still running like normal. Praise the Lord! He fixed my refridgerator. He answered my cry for help. He cares for me!* I guess I am still working on being obeident to this command: "Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness,...

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